How it started?
From the childhood i am just a average guy , in indian society people judge you one the basis of your score and honestly i am not good any thing ,just doing the rant what school teach you not getting any praise because what i know i don't score very well in any subject, there is so many competition in the school i never participate in any kind of function all sign of dumb child ,in my house my brother and sister appreciated for their achievement ,thats feel like man i will also score well and time pass and maybe thats the fourth class when i score the 1st in my class ,from there i am like scoring well till 4th class everytime my result comes ,i had always listen nothing no praise anything else at 4th i score well ,how i score well thats a secret i did the cheating heavily i study something then ,like essay or any hard thing which i can't learn ,i used the old paper and write there question answer and then in the exam use those old paper cool,i am becoming the cool child of my school even my friend think how he can learn essay ,long question this thing continue till 6th at 7th class i stop that and my result suddenly become again those average kind of stuff even my teacher said to me after exam write here i will pass you ,teacher have hope on me but they don't know I cheat but i also do rant like rant long question end to end till 8 my result just got down and i started playing the game "clash of clan" i started earlier but thats the peak time .
New beginning
School changed got a new environment lot of new thing 9th class ,this is the hardest phase i am just knowing do the rant of long question no thinking just like llm answer on the basis of pattern i also do same kind of stuff ,the school have good enough teacher from there with time i get interest in the physics ,force and velocity this kind of stuff fasinated me because those are real stuff and i am becoming the good in my class thats time i am study because i start to love the subject ,and thats the thing and honestly i am the kind of student who never focus on my homework writing the homework and all stuff i so many time doing just stuff just love the physics at that time ,and i score well and my class teacher praise me well thats great for me in one year i become the worthy of praise cool .
Then 10th we are belong to the lockdown batch started , in 10 i discovers the yt channel good teacher they teach in good way i like that and i start study from the beginning just time pass and i am not consistent in that phase and time pass paper got cancelled and man ,I start playing the Coc again .
COC Phase
Now start Coc again with my friend ,i am really don't want to call friend he is like my brother and still he is Monish , we both start the team we are two with a mission of playing competitive at highest level ,slowly we got some player and thing start changing we practice day and night ,paritipcate in lot of event we are getting good,got lot of new players people start to respect "TEAM MD" reason we both defeat the one of the best duo team in the lower th ,uv and monish thats change the game we become known ,we are hiring rapidly we have lot of event to play from morning till midnight ,practice match but at that moment our focus shift toward management and organizing the event ,and thats our biggest mistake we are making the big team but not focus on our skill , but its the best moment people knows us we have fame and lot of thing in that community we are growing like a hell but at that moment people try to down us ,we also organise the cup ,we have manager to handle the thing we start focusing to the practice but performance got down but our server become of 400 member and thats not small and at end i decided to leave reason my performance and the reason my behaviour become so aggressive i some time just without any thing did so many argument with teacher and i quit it ,that team played after me also some player become the big name i still miss those days its journey from 2 to 400,so this thing teach me we can do things we just have to do with head down and do it don't think so much "the more you think the less you execute"this journey end with some lesson its end at the 11th class end .
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first if you want to do anything do it ,things are possible we have gut to come out from our comfy zone and lets do it.
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I can make the big team and handle those.
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during that time have some good friend and worst one also.
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If you don't perform you mates who's u bring on the table ,put finger on your performance so be ready for that time .
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management of lot thing and how to handle the argument between your team member and sponsers.
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Do those thing which make the impact defiantly game teach me lot of things but its not have any impact on any good real thing .
11th second phase.
There is one more phase is becoming the goon ,do the many wrong things one of my friend we become digital goons, who just fight on the insta like todays child but also have lot of violence in my mind maybe if thats thing not stop i am playing in diffrent league i also decided to not study further after 10 but anyhow i take admission and take maths cs ,cs start to feel good also in this phase but i am not doing anything good just wasting time here and there giving warning online to the our so called enemies that phase end when the accident happend at that moment i was thinking man what you doing and again i come to the track of rant ,again books maths physics honestly that time also i love physics but cs make me to think about ,good i love the thing because from childhood i am like a phone guy who knows how to solve the phone problem i learn all those thing by doing the stupid thing in my mom phone ,but one more intresting thing in 11th i am the bad boy of my school lot of teacher just think this child is a stupid one .
THEN 12th come .
So in 12th i start to become serious and start jee prep because at time i get know you can become the enginner by this ,dont know anything else form the 5th class i know one word iit how i know once i see the image of Dr. APJ ABUDL KALAM sir with missaile i think IITIANS make this becuse thats was the adveritse of any IIT ,so still have thats voice of becoming the iitian engineer which make this ,then in the school i becoming the good but still not becoming the puppet of teacher but for my ideas i have different ideas from my whole class they rant and i think maybe thats the case there is one person who got selected in the MIT USA ,but i feel that guy also a bookish guy but he is good guy honestly but what i feel i am telling that ,so my maths teacher and more teacher recognise me by idea ,i still know my maths teacher saying "the only person can score full out of full is Uvesh " but how this change happen is this happen i geniunly become intrested in the subject rather than the rant school student doing i am still a that rant boy but i start to think diffrently maybe thats because my content consumption is very good i think so ,so what i know "i become known in my school because i think in some cases diffrently rather than rant " no homework in most cases ,nothing like the child people who are favourite of teacher i have no quality of those guys what i know ,but teacher have hope but mostly i failed in the score card in my internal exams lot of time lot of teacher said to me "uvesh why this low score beta " but thats i am ? jee prep not going good def because have to go to the school also ,and the study consistently those subject is ,i did the study but not that much and 12th done with 75% of marks i am happy enough that i can shit in jee adv and mains.
The JEE Phase.
Again the rant phase i think form the morning taking class till evening because this phase started after 12th doing jee prep day night ,giving test i never sit in the chair in the whole life ,i sit in the jee phase but most of the time in classes and no time to consume and understand the subject whenever i try to understand the subject i am very slow because i am thinking lot of real cases thats type of people never make in jee exams because there is requirment people should have doing the thing what teacher said consume practice it revise it and qulaified it and maybe i am not that kind of student or maybe i am just makiing excuse don't know but a good phase that i can shit and do the work lot of new concept to learn but those phase never give you time to experiment just head down and rant this is not a good thing if you want to become a problem solver first exam happend have good hope but not got good marks loss all hope then in second never prep again failed again , Amu exam failed again and everyone thinking this child have studied lot but what happend? nothing just failed .
Now whats next ?
Next is computer which i think i have something but i think at the jee time who become iitian they earns lot of money people and societey teach you this things that sucessfull means "money" i think so ,and i have nothing so decided to doing no degree and doing cs my self but at the end because of my father and just a starting point i took the admission in srgc tier 56 college .
after college by searching on yt i stated DSA doing for 2-3 months not daily just small small but again the same thing but its good becuase its solving problem but those are not real problems again which i have hate so i quit it and i jsut start to waste my time again then the year ends i got fever and that point i am not doig anything just exploring and start "WEB DEV" its feel good because building real thing so i start again just watching and not doing anything myself and in between i quit again because of the college exam then i start again this time think build proeject but again going at high speed ,then quit again now start again from the hitesh sir damn man ,he is the teacher man who makes me the addict of studing from him and i start learn doing thing building small thing its feel good then again i stuck so many time but again i continue in this phase i am in one of the worst problem which i have...